That's right Justin. You did your job with sexy. I can do my job with cankles! Where's Timbaland when you need him?
I have been truly fortunate during the later part of my first trimester and most of my second trimester to feel completely great! In fact, sometimes I think I have felt better pregnant than not pregnant. My migraines completely vanished during my first trimester - which is actually somewhat unique because many people complain their migraines increase. However, I guess all good things must come to an end. I am entering my 25th week, the tail end of the 2nd trimester, and boy...yIcan tell!
I started grad. school this week. I am fortunate in my job allows me to work around my classes. So, Monday's I go in late at 12 and Friday's I don't have to work at all. But it comes with a price. Monday's I am at school until 8ish. Thursday's I am at school from 8 to 8. Thursday is a tough day. This especially since my energy level has seriously went down hill this week. On Wednesday, it was everything I could do to keep my eyes open at work. I came home and went to bed at 6pm. Thursday I woke up and I was very swollen. I've been swelling periodicially but nothing like this. My ankles had COMPLETELY disappeared. My rings were really tight. And I could have sworn my face blew up too! I have also had this intense pressure at the bottom of my stomach. When I stand up sometimes it feels like all of my organs fall to the bottom of my stomach. In addition, I had some other...well we will call them symptoms....that made me a little worried. I called the doctor and they told me to come in Friday morning for a check-up.
The doctor checked my blood, urine, blood pressure, etc. Most everything checked out well. They found the source of the problem and it's easily treated (I won't go into graphic details just in case you are eating :) ) The doctor explained to me I am probably going to be one of those women who just swell a lot. Great! Last night I went to the doctoral party and stood on my feet for about two hours. Yeah, not a good idea. By the end of the party I could barely feel my feet...and what ankles I had left were gone.
The good thing about the doctor's appointment was I got to hear Emma's heartbeat! Her heartbeat was going strong at 140 bpm. The nurse had to chase her down...she was wiggly! I felt a little bad because I snuck some coffee before the appointment. Emma must have been getting her coffee jilt!
Though this week was particularly hard...I don't want it to seem like I am complaining. Pregnancy is much much much more difficult than I imagined. Though I've been relatively healthy thoughout my pregnancy so far even carrying the weight is harder than I imagined. It gives me a great appreciation for the fine art of working out and keeping the pounds off (after Emma arrives).
Despite the complaints, everyday I grow to love Emma more. I didn't know this type of love was possible. It's a completely different love.
Yesterday, I heard Carrie Underwood's song "So Small." In the song she has a lyric that says:
What you've been searching for
forever in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It makes everything else
seem so small
My entire life has been about accomplishing one thing after another. Marriage. Check. House. Check. Undergrad. Check. Masters. Check. Get in to doc. school. Check. Earlier this year I was having a conversation with my former boss. She asked me "When will enough be enough?" I didn't know. My life was planned and I figured I would know when I had accomplished "enough." Though I still don't know if you can accomplish "enough" I know that for right now, I feel like I am about to enter a completely different phase of my life. I will have a whole set of new goals and ambitions. What was important, is still important, but takes a different priority. What is a great resume if your child doesn't know you? I can have a whole list of accomplishments but if my family isn't in check - is it really worth it?
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