Why is it that in our society mothers are made to feel so guilty for trying to find the right balance between motherhood, being a good wife, and a professional. Can a woman not be all three - make that can a woman not be GOOD at all three? Can one, with the help of God, not find a balance between all three? Today I had to leave work early because Emma was sick. I knew when I dropped her off this morning that she might not make it through the day. She wasn't "sick" - she was in good spirits - but her stomach was upset. However, all morning I worried about her. All thoughout teaching my lessons I thought about how I wished I could be with Emma and make sure she was okay. I felt horrible for having someone else take care of MY daughter. Around noon, I left work to go pick her up. As I was telling some colleagues of mine that I was leaving to go get my daughter, I couldn't help but notice that one older lady (who happens to have an older child, mind you) gave me a "look." In that moment, I felt like a horrible professional. Here I am back in the professional world - the world I was so excited to enter back into - and I can barely balance it. I never not gave 110% to everything I do...and there are some days I feel like I'm barely give 100%.
Will I ever find the balance? Or will I just learn a quick and easy way to fake it? Either way, I'd really appreciate either one - and on the quick.
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